In this installment of my exploration into death and dying, I find myself two weeks after bidding farewell to Havana, lovingly assisted by the vet on her journey beyond. We laid her to rest in our garden, next to her dear companion, Romeo.
This is the final resting place for Romeo and Havana – they are buried next
to each other.
The atmosphere in the house has shifted since then. Initially, there was a pervasive stillness, but soon, various activities and plans filled our days. My husband and son made travel arrangements, and we decided to redecorate our son’s room. Amidst the busyness, a lingering undercurrent of sadness, despair, and weightiness remained.
Leo picking colors for his room.
While I’ve come to terms with Havana’s departure intellectually, my heart and body still need time to process this profound loss. The unexplained fatigue and unnamed emotions persist, and I find myself seeking solitude and quiet spaces. The tears have subsided, and I’ve accepted her absence, but there’s a peculiar sense of both emptiness and fullness that I struggle to comprehend fully.
Havana and Romeo taught me the essence of emotional warmth and love. They allowed me to be vulnerable, to play without judgment, and to cultivate kindness and gratitude. Their patient dependence showed me the beauty of slowing down and practicing tolerance. They revealed that interdependence is an integral part of life, reminding us of the value of our connections with others.
It’s remarkable how much we can learn from one another, and pets are no exception. Both Havana and Romeo passed away in my arms, leaving behind a profound gift. Their final moments bestowed upon me qualities I aspire to embody – grace, surrender, and quiet acceptance. Though words may not fully capture the depth of their teachings, my heart, mind, and soul have been transformed by their departure.
Their passing has also offered me insight into dying peacefully, even in the face of pain and struggle. Havana and Romeo showed me the missing pieces that dispelled my fear of physical pain and the unknown of death. Their experiences left me with a template of peace, a frequency of serenity that I can hold onto when my time comes, allowing me to face the future with grace and awareness.
As I reflect on this journey through loss and the profound lessons from my dear companions, gratitude fills my heart for the time we shared and the impact they had on my life. Their love, warmth, and companionship have forever changed me, empowering me to navigate life’s challenges and approach the mysteries of death with grace and tranquility.
Romeo, Navjit, Leo ( 2 days old, in the sling) Britt, and Havana.
I hope that sharing my experience and the lessons I’ve learned will resonate with you, dear readers. Let us cherish the memories of our beloved pets and loved ones, drawing strength from the enduring impact they leave behind. May their love continue to guide us, enriching our lives with compassion, understanding, and a profound appreciation for the precious gift of life.
With Love,
Navjit