I have two announcements for you today.
1 I wanted to let you know that the Tenderlogic.com site will be offline on the 23rd of May. It will be back up on the 24th
And 2, The reason for the downtime? I am about to launch my new website and I want to share this exciting news with you first.
It has been a long time in the making. I can think of a dozen reasons why it’s taken this long but the real reason is that I wasn’t ready. And by that I mean, even though professionally it made sense to revamp the old website, I was still growing into myself.
At first, I didn’t know I was growing into myself. I pushed and pushed to make the new website happen. I would decide on one direction and then within days I would drop the idea and start on another because the truth was that I wasn’t clicking with any of the directions I was coming up with for myself.
But as web designers quit, programmers disappeared, copywriters moved to cushier gigs, I kept wondering what was going on thinking that they were the problem.
“What’s going on, universe? Don’t you want me to move forward?” I would ask. “Why this one step forward and 20 million steps back?”
I learned that growing into oneself doesn’t happen in a convenient time frame to match our goals or expectations.
Becoming oneself is a lifetime’s journey and I have found myself pausing, pondering, deliberating along this path about my role as a parent, wife, daughter, as a guide for others, the ebb and flow of passion, finances and the magnetic draw of stillness and what lies within.
I remember meeting a Buddhist monk almost 3 decades ago and him looking into my eyes. As I looked into his eyes I felt the whole universe look back. That is how I feel these days: as if the whole universe is looking back at me. I can feel it unveiling itself to me if I stand still long enough.
And then I feel joy; an almost uncharted joy. It is not loud or garish but freer, lighter and inwardly streaming.
What I had previously viewed as loneliness or isolation were now places where I could find peace. Fears of illness, mortality and even the big one, fear of missing out, no longer overshadowed my life.
That is what has been growing inside me; a stronger connection to that joy and the ability to be still. That feeling and spaciousness I want to share with you.
So, here I am. It would be my honor to welcome you to my new website on May 24th, 2017.
This new site will give a better understanding of how I can help you. Save the date!